October 19, 2007

Thank you

I thought
I was lost,
I am lost
Lost in thought
Lost in beliefs,
Lost in hopes,
Lost in prayers.

And beliefs,
Only mine.

I thought
Was with you
I wanted to
I wished to
Because of me
Only me.

I realized not
I was with you
As you
And as much as you
Were with me
As me.
It was not
I with you
And you with me,
It was
We with us
Not alone
Not separate
Together as one.

With you
Now, and before
Because I wanted
I hoped
I believed
You wanted
You hoped
And you believed.

I am with you
Because I want
Because you want
Because we want.


October 8, 2007

Joy and Pain

Tearing my way,
Bursting the seams,
I ride out.
In a torrent of blood,
I ride out.

She cries in pain,
She cried with joy.
Tears, they are the same,
She gave me birth,
She gave me life.

He stands there,
Disbelief in his eyes,
He created life,
In pleasure,
He created me.

Out of their pleasure,
Born to her pain,
I shall bring joy,
I shall bring pain.

Their lives,
With mine,
Their actions,
Based on my needs.

I caused her pain,
With my birth,
With my birth,
I caused them joy.
Was it them or was it me?

Do I still please
Or are they pleased,
To see my life
My way?

They gave me life,
They showed me life.
Even if I live it
Against wishes, theirs,
Happy they are, for me.

My joys,
Mine, do I share?
My pain,
They partake,
Don’t they care?

Their pain,
They share.
Their pain,
I am clueless,
Why do I not care?

Joy in my joy,
Pain in my pain.
Joy in their joy,
Pain, un-shown,
Unknown, unseen.

October 2nd 2007